Day 347

Today is day 347 of my 365 day challenge. Only a few more days to go! Then I will try to talk about this experience a little bit. I can say it's been a real challenge in a lot of ways but one I've learned a lot from. Ok. Have a great day friends!

Day 346

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Day 344

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Steamy, Comfy, Familiar

We ate at Shoney's tonight. I know it's not fine dining, but there is something so comforting about being there sometimes. I think it's the steam that comes from the food bar. Or maybe it's because the food is consistent and predictable. Reminds me of lunchroom food and being a kid. Some of waitresses have worked there for at least ten years. Nice to see a familiar face. It was just right for tonight....steamy, comfy, familiar. Kinda like getting a nice warm hug from an old friend.

On a Lighter Note

Our squirrel is back! It loves to torment my dog Daisy. Daisy barked and frothed and went nuts when she saw it this morning. It was parked on a branch right outside our window and had settled in...to warm in the sun....and drive my little dog mad. Ha!

Day 341

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Day 340

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Momma Don't

Why so sad? Why has it been raining from your eyes? Because my 73 year old momma has been having her annual fall depression. My sis and I have had to mother our mother....again. Praying she'll stay with us. Hoping she won't take her life. Desperately not wanting to go through parental suicide again. Wanting her to die any way but that.

My poor sis bears most of the burden, physically staying with momma. I call when I can. Telling momma it will be ok. That it will pass. Reminding her that it always does. That she'll feel better in a few days. Secretly wondering if this will be the year. The time we'll leave her alone for thirty minutes and come back to find her dead. The year we'll bury another parent who decided to end it all. To leave us.

Every fall. All our lives. It rains. And rains. And rains. From our eyes. Momma don't die. Momma don't die. Momma please don't die.

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Day 337

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It's Raining

It's raining here today. Outside and in. It's raining from my eyes. I don't feel good and there is simply nothing to do about it, but sit here...and watch the drops fall.